my complicated life

so far, amidst my pagkainis and aside from the daily improvement of Lance weight and health, the preparation for his baptism keeps me excited and mellow. as of now, here's the update!

the important ones:

• church - shortlisted now the Our lady of the Miraculous Medal Parish (aka Posadas church), since United Paranaque church do not have a saturday ceremony, Better Living Church is not accommodating enough to non-parishioners, Simbayanan ni Maria looks degraded now...
• reception venue - the Shanghai Garden Resort (www.shanghaigardenresort.com) yipee!!! pencil booked the August 4th date already.
• food - Blue Petals, most probably since it is the only well-known caterer inside Paranaque area.
• guestlist - trimmed down to a hundred.
• sponsor list - finalized. the ninong's will be Ariel, France, Reggie and Aldous while the ninang's will be Fe, Elena, Lea and Marifer.
• cake - pencil booked with Recipe's and Magic
• photo - Marq Oliver Photography... for free!!!!!! another yippee!!! (www.marqoliver2005.multiply.com)
• video - our own miniDV cam. no appointed videographer yet.
• wardrobes - no update
• souvenir / lootbag / prizes - no update

• will u be my godparent ecard - no update
• invitation - drafted the online invite
• guestbook/guestsheet - no update
• centerpiece - no update
• thank you card - no update
• gift tags - no update
• candle wrapper - no update
• baptismal rite - no update
• program - no update

1. church: nothing final yet. still undecided and unregistered. we already have 3 choices in mind, which are United Paranaque church, Better Living Church and Posadas Church. all within taguig area.
2. reception venue : nothing final yet. still undecided and unreserved. we have 2 choices for now, the Villa Juanita in bagumbayan and the Alcatrocks inside Better Living Subd. picked due to proximity to the churches mentioned above.
3. food : nothing final yet. eyeing for Blue Petals' menu for 100 persons. might lessen the number of guests due to budget constraints.
4. guestlist : list is still on draft mode and formal invitations are not yet sent. tentatively, 100 guests. the more, the merrier. =)
5. sponsor list : still on draft mode. so far our list includes ninongs to be ariel and aldous while ninangs will be fe, elena, fer, marianne and lea. we still have to think and finalize this list and send out favor request. to note, ang hirap to get ninang/ninong in the philippines! not unlike here in the uae, ninangs/ninongs were all in a voluntary basis during conception palang! hay, how i wish ellen and jen could be in the philippines to be the ninangs para no doubt ako that baby Lance will be taken cared of when something goes wrong with me. knock on wood! hehehe.
6. cake : wishing to have a cupcake tree. shortlisted suppliers are French Kiss, Recipes and Magic, Gervy's, Sugarbox.
7. photo : shortlisted suppliers are Ging Lorenzo, Jeff & Pia and probably Oliver's photography if he gives me a friendly rate, hihi.
8. video : will probably use my miniDV cam. i just haven't nominated who among my nephews will be the official videographer of the day. =) i need to bring the tripod though kahit hassle sa luggage.
9. wardrobes : christening wardrobes for the baby, parents and grannies. i already bought Lance's party dress in Red Tag last week (my only accomplishment so far!). cute siya and formal. i'm sure, Lance will be so cute in it.
10. souvenir / lootbag / prizes: still clueless on what and where to get a useful yet cutey souvenir. i will just visit divi at the last minute for the loot bag and prizes. gawin daw bang photo-finish. =)

as for not-so-important but hoping i could get done do-it-yourself projects, the list goes as:

1. "will u be my godmother/godfather" e-card : e-card making software downloaded already. poem requested via my GT forumer and is waiting for her response. i just don't have anymore of those creativity juice flowing... =(
2. invitation : poem was written by my GT forumer, isisalexi! thanks sis! although all photos are available already, i still cannot make this as i have no church/venue details yet.
3. guestbook / guestsheet : yep, i haven't decided which of the two to make... hehe.
4. centerpiece : i have made the collage already although i am not sure if this will print out just fine. will print test it this week.
5. thank you card : i already have the text waiting to be used. hihi.
6. gift tags : for the kids' loot bag and guest souvenirs.
7. candle wrapper : of course, for the candles! hehe. like the others, pure idea palang. no realization yet.
8. baptismal rite : i have a sample already (from a forumer also) but not the one from the "supposed to be" church. technically, idea palang din ito. =)
9. program : vina agreed to be my host, had 2 games in mind but still doesn't have a final program.

• we don't have the same plans / priorities.
• he just don't see what is important to me and what would make me happy. kahit na anong gawin kong explain or mention what is important to me, nde naman niya iniintindi. ni nde nga binigyang pansin eh. =(
• nde kami ng baby ko ang first priority nya. siguro, if i had to list down yung mga taong important sa kanya, ni wala kami sa top 10 and the sad part is, he is not making an effort to make us feel otherwise.

aside from his medical check-up, his reason for going home was to unwind. according to him he is just so stressed here in the UAE. stressed in all aspects, job, surrounding, etc. perhaps even with me. imagine that... pag uwi nya from office, he doesn't even have to cook. i can claim that i am taking care of him as what a wife should supposed to do. despite of which, stressed pa rin siya!!! yung iba ngang OFW, they have to cook, wash clothes, etc. pagkagaling sa work. pero siya, no need na and yet stressed pa rin! gusto ko na ngang sabihing, he might as well stay in the philippines and not to come back anymore. hmp. sabi nya magkaiba daw kasi kami, mataas daw kasi stress level tolerance ko. i was the one who even has to make all the plans and who thinks of my baby's yaya eh. ni hindi ko nga pinapa-problema sa kanya yun or financially needs his support! =( ewan ko, i just don't see any justification sa kino-complain nya.

with that, i decided na lang to go home this july and give my baby a baptism without him or his family. what for pa? nde nga kami important sa kanya eh, what more sa family nya. tama nga ako. there's no point planning for a future with him. tatanda ako nang maaga kung palaging ganito. when baby finally comes into this world, i will just be a mommy but won't be a wife anymore.

• i woke up so late that i wasn't able to take a decent breakfast. i just snatched the choco-mocca biscuit at the cupboard and munched it when i reached the office. oh, i also brought sliced pears and 2 bananas from home. =)
• i had tons of desk work that i only had chicken soup for lunch (a soup where i couldn't find a single chicken strip...). the soup for the hungry soul and bulgy stomach..hehe.
• the recreation committee's organizing an Egypt trip slated on April 8-12 and staying at Hilton Hotel. why, oh why??!!! of all times, do they have to schedule it on days i can't possibly go?? nakakainis! i repeat, nakakainis to the max!!!!
• our PRO refused to attend to my request of visa application for my sister. he suggested i go down to the Abu Dhabi Immigration Department myself. ako pa??!! nway, straight from the office, i went to the said government agency. i got there around 4:15 PM. the guard was nice and he instructed me for the procedure and where to go to. i went first to have the application written online and printed out (this is outside the immigration building, right side) to be attached to the required documents. the documents that i brought are me and my sister's passport copies, her photo (which i just grabbed from her friendster account and printed from my office's printer, hehe) and my salary certificate written in arabic. it costs me 25AED for that application letter which was also written in arabic. then, i bought an e-card with empost (courier) entitlement that costs 117 AED in all (100 AED for the visa, 10 AED for the empost and probably 7 AED for the card?? hehe). i finished attending to with these documents at around 5 pm. i went back to the immigration building (left side), took a number slip which serves as a queue. my slip reads i'm customer #0631 and they are currently serving customer # 0540!! ohmigosh! quite a long queue and my baby's having his tantrums already because of hunger. since i am pretty sure it'll take me centuries before i can have my turn, i went out and luckily found a vendo machine and had a cup of hot choco instead. i climbed up the stairs going to the big building where there are 3 adjoining seats at each side of the stairway. i sat on one of the seats, drank my coco and ate one of the bananas i hurriedly placed in my bag this morning. i don't care whether walang ka-poise-poise yung meal ko and that i had to bite into that banana in public! gutom na si baby and i don't think i could last that long with him doing somersaults inside my tummy until i don't give in to his demands. =) after a couple of minutes of being full, my bladder felt its needs to empty out as well. i went down, checked the queue... customer #0584... still a long way to go! so, i surveyed the whole immigration department for a sight of a john, which i luckily found at the left side of the big building, ground floor. ang galing mo talaga, myleen! haha. i took a refreshing leak and went back to the visa (leftside) building afterwards and waited there for my #0631st turn. however, with angels on my side making up for my bad day, the person seated beside me seemed to have lost his/her patience that he/she left his/her slip. i dunno the pronoun to use since i wasn't able to see the person responsible. all i did noticed was that a #0621 slip was at the seat beside me ready for taking. syempre, i am just a smart human so i innocently slid my hands into it. hihi. yeepee!! customer #0621!!! around 7:00 PM, "my" new number was called and i was able to submit my sister's visa application which i will just wait after 3 days for a courier to deliver right by our doorstep. before i left the building, i gave my customer # 0631 slip to a fellow kabayan na kahit na ini-snob ako, it's my way of paying it forward to the good angels and grant to her my unused slip. at exactly, 7:15 PM, i was out of the immigration department. =)

some things to take note though...

• the immigration department do not take cash for payment. that's the use of the e-card that i bought from the typing folks outside the immigration office.
• i saved roughly 50 AED, against having this visa processsed by our PRO who charges me 220AED/visa. hmp!
• i only had a regular visa for processing which was 100 AED. an extra 100 AED is required should one wants the visa processed and claimed after an hour.

my hubby's karate club had their christmas gathering today at the corniche ground. i was invited by my hubby to tag along, in order for me to meet his karate friends and at the same time be their "photographer/videographer" as well. kaya pala ako isinama!!! =)

their stint started around 10 AM with individual demonstration of skills and then followed by group demo. they also had a fight match amongst each other. watching my hubby fight was kinda funny. hehe. he looked like a school kid challenged to a fight by a bully. =)

after all the karate show-offs we had lunch together with these karate guys. ang daming food!! we had different meat dishes, pancit, cassava cake, etc. with all these delicacies, me and "baby" in my tummy are happy eventhough we are just guests. hihi.

All,

I would like to thank everyone for their participation in the Open Day yesterday. I think it went very well. We’ll see how many students decide to major in Geoscience. I particularly want to thank Myleen (Great job!), Silvia (Students really seemed to be interested in fossils!), James and his earthquakes, Jovy, Sree, Vicky, Pilar, and the faculty who spent the entire day interacting the students (classes permitting). I can’t overstress how important this kind of activity is in making
Geosciences attractive and interesting.

Thanks again,
Dr. Robert D.
Winn
Director
Petroleum Geosciences

• picnic with friends
• make the long overdue HK video
• buy goodies and send package to the philippines
• buy textile to be made into new clothes and beddings
  
  

gosh, i hope i can accomplish all these at nde na naman umiral ang katamaran ko... hehe.

by Yeng Constantino


Minsan madarama mo kay bigat ng problema

Minsan mahihirapan ka at masasabing "di ko na kaya"

Tumingin ka lang sa langit

Baka sakaling may masumpungan

O di kaya ako'y tawagin

Malalaman mong kahit kailan


Chorus:

Hawak-kamay

Di kita iiwan sa paglakbay

Dito sa mundong walang katiyakan

Hawak-kamay

Di kita bibitawan sa paglalakbay

Sa mundo ng kawalan


Minsan madarama mo

Ang mundo'y gumuho sa ilalim ng iyong mga paa

At ang agos ng problema'y tinatangay ka

Tumingin ka lang sa langit

Baka sakaling may masumpungan

Di kaya ako'y tawagin

Malalaman mong kahit kailan


(Repeat Chorus)


Bridge:

Wag mong sabihin nag-iisa ka

Laging isiping may makakasama

Narito ako oh, Narito ako...


(Repeat Chorus)


Sa mundo ng kawalan

Hawak-kamay, Hawak-kamay

Sa mundo ng kawalan...

i have always love animation with good stories like Lion King, The Little Mermaid, Madagascar, Finding Nemo...etc. Ice Age included!! however, i missed watching the second Ice Age movie. =(

my hubby and me went out today to Hamed Center because he promised me that he's gonna buy Ice Age 2 playstation cd for me and a new controller. naah, he didn't bought the said game version of the movie because i missed the film. he bought it because :

1. i am his avid "uzi" when he was infront of the PS2 console (naawa siguro, hehe),
2. due to lack of coordination between my hands, i just couldn't progress through the PS games that we have. i usually get stuck somewhere (and that somewhere is in Stage 1, hehe),
3. he wants to improve my body (hands specifically) coordination and solve #2,
4. i always sees his "enemies" first when he's playing a game (balak akong gawing kakampi na may saysay), and also
5. he wants our baby to grow-up and be a sniper. mala-anti-terrorist ba. hehe. so, it would be best to train him as early as when he's still at the womb. perhaps he might develop his reflexes na. hihi.

he said that once i got to finish this game, i could start with the Tomb Raider game. Go, go! Lara! =)

• i eat minimum of five (5) meals a day. pero nde rin. i could be this matakaw because my kuya was here in UAE and he keeps cooking good food. no, make that excellent tasting food. masarap talaga magluto si kuya, even the simplest menu he could turn into sumptuous one. hehe, nde naman ako sipsip. kumbaga, magana lang kumain pag may tagaluto. =)
• i can take naps without my hubby forcing me to do so. i am not a nap-loving-type of person. lately, i just take naps if my hubby forces me to take nap when he takes his nap. however, for the past few days i take nap because i am just sooooo sleepy. i take nap in the morning or in the afternoon. pero nde rin. i could be this sleepy because i am always online and sleep late or i was just used to a longer sleeping time during my month-long vacation.
• frequent urination. pero nde rin. well, i used to have this symptom when i had my UTI (urinary tract infection). am i having one again??? is this the consequence of eating too much Boy Bawang??!!! i hope not (peborit ko pa naman na ito). i'd better drink lots water then.
• cramps on my abdomen and swollen breasts. pero nde rin. i am due to have my period that's why i am experiencing these signs.
• feeling nilalagnat. pero nde rin. my hubby says my temperature is the same as his. however, i feel like i don't have the energy and is too tired. naah, nasobrahan lang siguro sa bakasyon. hahaha.
• spotting. i did experienced this for a day or two. it caused me to worry since it could be another hormonal imbalance again. again, because it has happened before. the only difference from the previous occurrence was that this spotting subsided after a few days. could this be another hormonal imbalance thingy? i hope not.

well, could all these be the signs that i am indeed pregnant? if i am, i am worried nonetheless. worried not because of the bodily changes but more of what i have been doing the past month during the suppossed conception.

• i have used an anti-acne cream (with tretinoin) and liquid soap (with salicylic acid). i have been bombarded with pimples kasi without knowing that that these are signs of hormonal changes.
• i have used antibiotic eyedrops for my eye allergies. my eye's previous allergic reaction has re-occurred and i really have no choice.
• i have been eating a lot of oily and junk foods. this is all my fault. sarap kumain eh!

i dunno, what to pray for now. whether to pray to have a baby on the way or to pray not to have one. i hope the Lord grants us whatever is good for the baby.

Note: I have decided to create a separate blog for my pregnancy experiences. i aim to document the things i am going through as an expectant mom to guide future moms, seek advice from certified moms and merely to share the moments with my friends. please refer to www.preggymai.blogspot.com.

this book composed of story-telling chapters of David about the eccentricities of his family and himself. i think i have to re-read this book since i wasn't able to grasp the author's message and what he was trying to convey. funny instances were captured funnier though.

this wasn't my first e-book reading accomplishment. however, from my new e-book collections i have decided to read this yesterday because bookworms have commented that this was a funny one. in order to encourage myself to actually delve into book reading, i might as well start with a not-so-boring story. and guess what, i finished it after just two days!! excluding the Secret Garden, Daddy-Long-Legs and Shrouded Hearts which i read during spare time a couple of weeks back, this book was officially my first e-book since i started getting seriously back into reading. seriously means reading even if i am on a taxi, at work or while watching tv. =)


the book was written by Sophie Kinsella. it was about an ordinary, charming gal named Emma Corrigan who frantically turned her life upside-down when she confesses her secrets to a stranger she seated beside with on a plane and who later turned out to be her company's living founder -- Jack Harper, the big boss.

she then faced an uncomfortable office days when Jack stayed at their office and recognized her. eventually, revealing her secrets one by one! however, little did Emma realized that she is gradually falling for him to the point of breaking up with her boyfriend Connor. Emma and Jack found themselves together despite the uneasiness Emma felt that the latter seems not willing to share his life story with her.

the story progresses with twists and turns: Emma's confronting her family, Jack's revelation of Emma's secrets on national television, the unwanted help Emma got from her roommate Jemima, etc. however, the story ended with Jack and Emma resolving the differences and doubts between them. finding themselves more fascinated and in love with each other.

verdict: the story was kakilig-kilig at makulet! hihi

my officemates, alfred and jess, thought of teaching me tennis today. kulet nila eh but then, nagpapilit na rin ako because i wanna try out if i can manage this sport or not. and since, i don't have anyone to play badminton with, i might as well shift into another sport that i would have playmates.

right after office work, we went to our newly-constructed gym with sasi, a fellow technician. the building has four separate gyms that can be set-up depending on the sport that you want to play. it is also fully air-conditioned, with sound system, pull down/up benches for audience, very clean changing rooms with lockers, retractable hoop&ring for basketball... in short, high-tech amenities.

the lesson started with proper holding of the racket, then the correct arm position and later on with the techniques on how to make topspin. i had no problem with making topspin, however, i don't do well with control and also receiving. sobrang lakas ng tira pero mabagal (weird noh) at hindi ko masambot yung tira nung kalaban. hehe. aahh. kelan kaya ako magiging athletic??!!!! i was just a second-rate, trying hard, copy cat version of friends who are into sports. =(

after 2 hours, i was exhausted and naliligo sa pawis. but then, enjoy huh. ewan ko lang bukas, kasi for sure masakit kasu-kasuan ko nito. hihi.

just before the graduation tomorrow, our director thought of giving lunch to the first graduates of our department today at Al Raha Beach Hotel. it was about 20-minutes drive from PI. the hotel lobby itself was far better than Gulf Hotel or Crowne Plaza. the food, which was a buffet lunch, was sumptous as well. i really love the shrimp! hehe. kaya lang, medyo pa shy-effect pa ako kaya konti lang nakain. =)

the whole staff was invited but some chose not to join. ewan ko ba sa department namin, walang unity. well, i don't blame them. i also don't wanna go in the first place. kaya lang, RW really wants me to change from the shy myleen to a bolder one. if it's not for the promotion i was nominated for, nde ako sasama eh. but then, kailangan eh... and so, i went.

yesterday's dress rehearsal has been a laughing stock for the audience. and i kinda feel humiliated as well for i also made mistakes. after a late night practice, i suggested to my partner that we do some extra practice before the actual event so as to have fresh minds and not to forget the steps.

so, my partner dropped by the flat around 4PM and we had an extra run-through of the steps. it took us about 10 rounds before we finally had everything perfect. we called off the practice after 3 perfect performances and he went ahead to prepare for the choir call time at 5 PM infront of Al Salama Hospital.

i reached the assembly area around 5:15PM already as i cried pa before leaving home. i was really expecting my hubby to accompany me to the National Threatre. but then, he declined and said he'd rather stop by the theatre before the show starts. kainis sobra! so, i had to rush and catch the bus at the meeting place! buti na lang, i was not the last person to arrive.

the troop was able to reach the theatre around 5:45PM. we had a short practice outside the hall. it was around 7pm when the shows started. we sang the Lupang Hinirang right after the UAE National Anthem. after around 5 more presentations from other groups, we performed Ang Aming Dasal. i performed well naman, no mistakes. however, my partner seemed to be a lost sheep back there. hay naku, our practice had been all for nothing. deep inside, nakakainis. but then, what can i do? the damage has been done, ika nga. afterall, i know he also did not wish to forgot the steps.

right after the Ang Aming Dasal, we shifted places for the Gandang Sinauna song. this, i was not so proud of myself. i have forgotten some lyrics din kasi. hay, iba talaga pag performance time na. it's either you make or break. well, i hope our performance didn't turn out to be so ugly or funny. as per my hubby's observation, it's not bad after all...

1. make the HK video that's long overdue. =)
2. get etisalat install the Al Shamil unlimited internet connection.
3. make my blog projects.
4. general cleaning of the house.
5. bake?? =) or learn sewing? ok, ok. at least, learn how to turn the sewing machine ON. ;p
6. enroll in French class. haha. i wish!
7. take driving lessons (hmm... the last of the list though, since i have not convinced myself into doing (most appropriate word: financing?) this. well, not unless somebody will sponsor the fees for the lessons then i will be fully convinced. hehe).

well, as to how many of the items included in the list will get to be done is another question. =) let's see....