my complicated life

• i eat minimum of five (5) meals a day. pero nde rin. i could be this matakaw because my kuya was here in UAE and he keeps cooking good food. no, make that excellent tasting food. masarap talaga magluto si kuya, even the simplest menu he could turn into sumptuous one. hehe, nde naman ako sipsip. kumbaga, magana lang kumain pag may tagaluto. =)
• i can take naps without my hubby forcing me to do so. i am not a nap-loving-type of person. lately, i just take naps if my hubby forces me to take nap when he takes his nap. however, for the past few days i take nap because i am just sooooo sleepy. i take nap in the morning or in the afternoon. pero nde rin. i could be this sleepy because i am always online and sleep late or i was just used to a longer sleeping time during my month-long vacation.
• frequent urination. pero nde rin. well, i used to have this symptom when i had my UTI (urinary tract infection). am i having one again??? is this the consequence of eating too much Boy Bawang??!!! i hope not (peborit ko pa naman na ito). i'd better drink lots water then.
• cramps on my abdomen and swollen breasts. pero nde rin. i am due to have my period that's why i am experiencing these signs.
• feeling nilalagnat. pero nde rin. my hubby says my temperature is the same as his. however, i feel like i don't have the energy and is too tired. naah, nasobrahan lang siguro sa bakasyon. hahaha.
• spotting. i did experienced this for a day or two. it caused me to worry since it could be another hormonal imbalance again. again, because it has happened before. the only difference from the previous occurrence was that this spotting subsided after a few days. could this be another hormonal imbalance thingy? i hope not.

well, could all these be the signs that i am indeed pregnant? if i am, i am worried nonetheless. worried not because of the bodily changes but more of what i have been doing the past month during the suppossed conception.

• i have used an anti-acne cream (with tretinoin) and liquid soap (with salicylic acid). i have been bombarded with pimples kasi without knowing that that these are signs of hormonal changes.
• i have used antibiotic eyedrops for my eye allergies. my eye's previous allergic reaction has re-occurred and i really have no choice.
• i have been eating a lot of oily and junk foods. this is all my fault. sarap kumain eh!

i dunno, what to pray for now. whether to pray to have a baby on the way or to pray not to have one. i hope the Lord grants us whatever is good for the baby.

Note: I have decided to create a separate blog for my pregnancy experiences. i aim to document the things i am going through as an expectant mom to guide future moms, seek advice from certified moms and merely to share the moments with my friends. please refer to www.preggymai.blogspot.com.