my complicated life

badtrip na badtrip ako kay marvin since yesterday. i just didn't get the reason why he has to choose his work over Lance's needs when he is supposed to resign from his job na naman. with that, sobrang gahol na kami to have Lance's visa settled before we get to go home. nanggigigil talaga ako sa inis. ewan ko ba, para siyang babae! ang bagal mag-desisyon sa buhay... grrr.... mabagal na, paiba-iba pa. buti sana kung hindi naka-depend yung legal documents ni Lance sa kanya. that's why, i really don't prefer to have Lance future rely on him dahil walang kakahinatnan for sure dahil sa sobrang uncertain ng mga plans at diskarte nya. grrr..... i even skipped from work just to get the salary certificate from his office na wala pa naman pala. kung nde ka ba naman makakapatay ng tao!!! at ako pa ang pagagalitan dahil dali-dali daw ako mag-decide to skip work! eh an hour before i leave the office when i told him that i'd rather be the one to get that damn document but he has to make sure it's there. i wasn't able to get any reply so i presumed okay na and left. tapos, wala pa rin pala!!

then, speaking to him regarding his supposed to be resignation, he changed his mind na daw!!! ayun, nagtapon na naman kami ng AED 300 for Lance visa application na nde na magagamit dahil nagbago na naman isip nya. kakabadtrip talaga. nauubos na savings ko dahil lang sa mali-maling desisyon na na ako ang nagbabayad. i don't want to sound so materialistic about it pero hello.... tama ba yun na mapunta lang sa wala yung mga pinag-ipunan ko just because nagbago isip nya???!!!! ewan ko, as i was always saying, he is a hopeless case.