It's been 3 years.
10 years ago
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
our family had one and probably the biggest family problem we have encountered. my siblings had to actually hold meetings in order to talk about the issue and how to resolve it.
yeah, unfortunately, our mother has gone astray and she turned into someone we don't even know. our worries escalated when our father became a willing victim of the situation. we love them so much, but we also cannot tolerate wrong things and make it right. what's the use of all the character-building lessons in life that we acquired from them when in the end we'll have to break the rules?
anyhow, i hope things will all pass and we will be able to surpass this trial.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
since lance isn't giving me a hint which theme he likes for his party, i decided i'll choose for him instead. with all the choices i have, from spiderman, to winnie d pooh, to superman... he now has an M&M Party Theme! yipee!!! and since OC mommy ako, i am now starting my preparation. to start it off, me and his ninang Ellen went to the clothing area in salam to buy give-away telas... and just this morning, i've been tweaking with the http://www.becomeanmm.com/ for the personalized M&M character for his save the date card! and viola, see the finished products below! ganda ba? hehe, excited na ako...
Choice #1 - with a cake.. pink nga lang. daddy M's boots in white color.
Choice # 2 - without cake, but with party hat. daddy M's boots in brown color.
introducing the M&M family...
papa M, as in Marvin
Friday, October 12, 2007
maridel has been in the UAE since wednesday (oct 10) as a stop-over before she leave for UK. in this case, me and our gradeschool classmates (and fellow Bicutan gals na rin!) decided that it'll be the best time to have our second reunion. most have been married already, therefore it'll be the chance to meet each other's hubbies na rin.
we agreed to meet up in Mall of Emirates at around 3 pm but finally had a complete attendance at around 4 pm. after we had a snack, the boys and the girls splitted out and stroll around the shopping area. the girls discovered the "black hole" attraction in the arcade area. it was so funny! everyone's been tricked with the illusion that the bridge is rotating. hahaha.
when 7pm came, the tour operator picked us up and we've been brought to the Dubai Creek area for our Dhow Cruise. here are some snapshots of our gathering:
we agreed to meet up in Mall of Emirates at around 3 pm but finally had a complete attendance at around 4 pm. after we had a snack, the boys and the girls splitted out and stroll around the shopping area. the girls discovered the "black hole" attraction in the arcade area. it was so funny! everyone's been tricked with the illusion that the bridge is rotating. hahaha.
when 7pm came, the tour operator picked us up and we've been brought to the Dubai Creek area for our Dhow Cruise. here are some snapshots of our gathering:
the girls!... at the ship deck... sino si rose? =)
the friday bunch at the ship base... enjoying the music
the reunion was fun and full of hagikgikan.... hihihi. it's a good thing that even our hubbies and the Bicutan boys got along well, too. the girls, as usual... easily bonded. we will surely miss maridel and hopes she'll come back to UAE for another visit some time soon. or sooner?! hehe...
Thursday, September 20, 2007
in my eagerness to get back into shape, i have started with the tennis clinic i once tried before i got preggy. as usual, i am still the clumsy, unathletic-type kind of girl back in the gym. hehe. anyhow, i was able to shed some sweat, kaya okay na rin. basta, my goal is to make myself fit and pretty para makahanap ng magmamahal ("the fairytale kind of love"). ngehehehe.
before i rested my tired arms, nag-forum muna ako for awhile and came across tle Legal Rights section of GT and was able to browsed thru the "annulment" and "maintaining your maiden name after marriage" threads. natawa nga ako deep inside kasi nde lang pala ako ang gumawa nito. well, i do wanted to use marvin's surname. yun nga lang, unless we get married in the church i'd rather not muna. i don't feel i am the legal wife unless i feel and he proved to the world that he is proud to have me. yeah, emote na naman ako. =( i am still in the denial stage, alright. convincing myself that i did let go, yet deep inside i am holding on. hay. ang hirap.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
finally reported back to work after three weeks of hibernation in the philippines. for my first day, two folks commented na gumanda daw ako... asus!!! hahaha. kung alam lang nila that i looked like a witch prior to my hair rebonding. yep, though it isn't 6 months yet after giving birth, i have insisted to have my hair rebonded at David's salon to gain back my self-confidence. hay, tama bang ma-insecure! anyway, what's important is, i feel pretty. ngehehehe.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Church : Our Lady of the Miraculous Medal Shrine (Rating:****)
the ceremony has been short and was held in tagalog. pinapili ako ni father and i opted for the tagalog version so even the kids can understand. only the godparents, family and some friends are in the church. yung mga guests na may dalang kids, mostly ay pina-diretcho ko na lang sa reception para nde hassle sa mga bata. the delos reyes family were also able to arrived at the reception only.
4 stars yung rating because i love this church for some personal reason. =) i subtracted 1 star kasi biglang umalis si father after the ceremony at nde agad ako nakahirit nang request na mag-stay siya for photo op. =( therefore, kasalanan ni father yun na 1 star less rating ko, hehehe.
the ceremony has been short and was held in tagalog. pinapili ako ni father and i opted for the tagalog version so even the kids can understand. only the godparents, family and some friends are in the church. yung mga guests na may dalang kids, mostly ay pina-diretcho ko na lang sa reception para nde hassle sa mga bata. the delos reyes family were also able to arrived at the reception only.
4 stars yung rating because i love this church for some personal reason. =) i subtracted 1 star kasi biglang umalis si father after the ceremony at nde agad ako nakahirit nang request na mag-stay siya for photo op. =( therefore, kasalanan ni father yun na 1 star less rating ko, hehehe.
baby lance was sleeping during the mass. he got awakened only when the priest started to pour the holy water into his head. nalamigan siguro...hehe.
definitely, an angel in my arms
a view outside the church with the godparents
Reception : Shanghai Garden Resort (Rating:*****)
the place and the services were superb. necy is nice at laging may available person to attend to our needs. even the guests love the place, especially the kids who got to swim sa pool after the event. =)
the place and the services were superb. necy is nice at laging may available person to attend to our needs. even the guests love the place, especially the kids who got to swim sa pool after the event. =)
Food : Blue Petals (Rating: ****)
my guests love the food. personally, i find their lengua something different yet yummy. first time kong nakatikim nun and i didn't even thought na yun yung dila ng baka... hehehe. services were good din naman except that in my observation, the waiters need to be more attentive in refilling drinks and attending to new guests.
my guests love the food. personally, i find their lengua something different yet yummy. first time kong nakatikim nun and i didn't even thought na yun yung dila ng baka... hehehe. services were good din naman except that in my observation, the waiters need to be more attentive in refilling drinks and attending to new guests.
Cupcakes and Choco Fountain : Sweet Affairs (Rating: ***)
the goodies were mouth-watering especially the fountain, but the 3-ounce cupcakes are still small for me. hehe. nothing is extraordinaire with the taste as well. however, Van was there to oversee yung set-up at kahit na meron pa siyang event on some other place, she was there before and after our event kaya okay na rin.
the goodies were mouth-watering especially the fountain, but the 3-ounce cupcakes are still small for me. hehe. nothing is extraordinaire with the taste as well. however, Van was there to oversee yung set-up at kahit na meron pa siyang event on some other place, she was there before and after our event kaya okay na rin.
Set-up: Balloon Kingdom (Rating:**)
dito lang ako disappointed sa suppliers ko because i was not that impressed sa actual set-up ng pillars and balloon clusters vs. the one i picked based sa portfolio. even the extras that she promised ay nde na-deliver. was it because i paid the whole amount due beforehand? nway...
dito lang ako disappointed sa suppliers ko because i was not that impressed sa actual set-up ng pillars and balloon clusters vs. the one i picked based sa portfolio. even the extras that she promised ay nde na-deliver. was it because i paid the whole amount due beforehand? nway...
Photo : Marq Oliver Photography (Rating: *****)
Oliver takes one stress away! stressful ang event but knowing that someone's taking the photos was something that reduces the stress. i couldn't imagine how it'll be kung walang kumukuha ng pix tapos busyng-busy ako with the guests. a heaven-sent friend talaga itong si Olie!
Oliver takes one stress away! stressful ang event but knowing that someone's taking the photos was something that reduces the stress. i couldn't imagine how it'll be kung walang kumukuha ng pix tapos busyng-busy ako with the guests. a heaven-sent friend talaga itong si Olie!
Tarpaulin : Simple Touch (Rating:*****)
had a 2.5 ft. x 5 ft tarp made by Simple Touch in 168 mall. lance is really gwapito. =) namili nalang ako ng design sa portfolio nila. i chose the under the sea design, kasi mala-pool party naman yung baptism ni baby eh.
Souvenirs/lootbag/prizes/guestbook/candlewrapper : DIY by me and my sister (Rating: *****)
everything were bought in divi except the printer ink. =) we have personalized everything by printing tags na may pic ni lance and event details. tapos yung guestbook, ginawa nalang din namin ng sis ko using American Greetings software and had it ringbinded for P30! hehe. ganda!
everything were bought in divi except the printer ink. =) we have personalized everything by printing tags na may pic ni lance and event details. tapos yung guestbook, ginawa nalang din namin ng sis ko using American Greetings software and had it ringbinded for P30! hehe. ganda!
the candle holders from front
candle holders pic taken from the back
behind this festive celebration, the baptism was kinda sad in a way. i remember, i was trying to hold back my tears while carrying my baby during the mass. i felt that marvin have been so cruel to stood up his own son's important event. somehow, the presence of his clan took some of the disappointments away. some... kasi up to this time, it saddens me that his family and mine weren't formally introduced. how could i? sobrang busy ako on the day! gustong-gusto ko na ngang umiyak even at the reception but doing so would all the more, spoil my son's event. pinigilan ko na lang din. sigh. ang mahalaga, kristiyano na si lance and i promise to raise him up to be a good boy. kasingbait ng mommy nya. =)
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
the essentials....
- Church - paid and reserved Our Lady of the Miraculous Medal for August 4 event. sa hinaba-haba ng prusisyon, dito rin pala ang church namin. hehe.
- Reception - paid and reserved Shanghai Garden Resort. i have visited the place with my sister and their customer service personnel, Necy' s very accommodating.
- Food - paid downpayment to Blue Petals. we shall be having our taste test this week. yummy! hehe.
- Guestlist - still waiting for RSVPs. sigh...
- Sponsor List - still waiting for Aldous and France's RSVPs.
- Cake - scrapped out of the list. =( however, red ribbon cake looks yummy. if there will be a spare money from the budget, i might get one as well. replaced the cake with chocolate fountains and cupcakes from Sweet Affairs. Van is such a darling! =) paid her downpayment already.
- Photo - called up Oliver already... ang gulo nya... ibitin nya lang ako at papatayin ko siya... hehe
- Video - no appointed videographer yet.
- Wardrobes - i was able to buy a blouse for myself for 300 bucks at 168.... hehe.
- Decor - ordered pillars and some baloon clusters from Balloon Kingdom.
- Tarpaulin - had a 2.5 ft. x 5 ft tarp made by Simple Touch in 168 mall. lance is really gwapito.
- Souvenirs/lootbag/prizes - souvenir for guests, partial lootbag contents and 3 pieces prizes were bought already. still need to personalized the souvenirs, organize the lootbags, make lootbags, and buy more prizes.
- will u be my godparent e-card - scrapped out of the plan since the ecard maker software that i was able to download was not that user-friendly, hehe.
- invitation - sent out save-the-date cards and baptism invites by email only and those that don't have email access were invited through sms. =)
- guestbook/guestsheet - no update yet
- centerpiece - will just have the flower centerpiece provided by the caterer.
- thank you card - no update
- gift tags - no update
- candle wrapper - no update
- baptismal rite - no update
- program - no update
Thursday, July 12, 2007
marvin, lance and me went to the gold souq area to look for necklace for lance. it was marvin's promise that he will buy us necklaces. i didn't actually look forward that he'll keep this promise but i went out with him anyway. he bought lance a necklace with a cross pendant. as for me, he asked me to choose a necklace. i did not. if he really wants to give me something, i will let him choose whatever he is willing to give and shell out. for the record, naluha ako that he actually bought me a necklace. why? because i don't expect it and it's something i really wanted to have but chooses not to buy because there are other more important things where my salary should go to. anyhow, i am thankful and somehow nabawasan ang insecurities ko.
updates are available on:
1. Church - Better Living Church is finally scrapped out of the choices. wala pala talagang Saturday ceremony for a baptism dun. therefore, we were back to Posadas and BPS church as choices. considering proximity of the church plus its rates, i therefore laidback with the splurging the emailed my sister to choose Simbayanan ni Maria Parish Church na nga lang. hehe. i'll just instruct Oliver not to take outside the church photos. perhaps, i could also make the ceremony special with a choir? this i have to check when i got back. sana may silbi ang pagiging ang aking ex-BPS student. *choosing all my fingers*
2. Reception - my sister finally paid the reservation for the Shanghai Garden Resort. yep, Aug 4 is totally ours and ours alone... ngehehehe.
3. Decor - my sister said she found someone who can do the decoration for us. i just dunno how much the rate will be. but as far as other suppliers are concerned, i got a quotation for a venue dress up for 5K pesoses (without the transpo and other ek-ek fee). grabe noh, decor lang ganun na kamahal. will check out this supplier that my sister mentioned and see how it goes.
4. Cake - i have sent an inquiry to another supplier based in QC, the Quintbelles. I do hope they give a better quote. hehe. try lang...
almost everything's working out well for Lance baptism preparation. okay na sana ang buhay, if not the insurance card and visa and our trip back home. hay naku. idadaan ko na lang sa prayers ito, kasi parang hopeless case na rin that we get the visa on time and we'll go home with his dad on the 20th. =(
Thursday, July 05, 2007
so far, amidst my pagkainis and aside from the daily improvement of Lance weight and health, the preparation for his baptism keeps me excited and mellow. as of now, here's the update!
the important ones:
- church - shortlisted now the Our lady of the Miraculous Medal Parish (aka Posadas church), since United Paranaque church do not have a saturday ceremony, Better Living Church is not accommodating enough to non-parishioners, Simbayanan ni Maria looks degraded now...
- reception venue - the Shanghai Garden Resort (www.shanghaigardenresort.com) yipee!!! pencil booked the August 4th date already.
- food - Blue Petals, most probably since it is the only well-known caterer inside Paranaque area.
- guestlist - trimmed down to a hundred.
- sponsor list - finalized. the ninong's will be Ariel, France, Reggie and Aldous while the ninang's will be Fe, Elena, Lea and Marifer.
- cake - pencil booked with Recipe's and Magic
- photo - Marq Oliver Photography... for free!!!!!! another yippee!!! (www.marqoliver2005.multiply.com)
- video - our own miniDV cam. no appointed videographer yet.
- wardrobes - no update
- souvenir / lootbag / prizes - no update
- will u be my godparent ecard - no update
- invitation - drafted the online invite
- guestbook/guestsheet - no update
- centerpiece - no update
- thank you card - no update
- gift tags - no update
- candle wrapper - no update
- baptismal rite - no update
- program - no update
badtrip na badtrip ako kay marvin since yesterday. i just didn't get the reason why he has to choose his work over Lance's needs when he is supposed to resign from his job na naman. with that, sobrang gahol na kami to have Lance's visa settled before we get to go home. nanggigigil talaga ako sa inis. ewan ko ba, para siyang babae! ang bagal mag-desisyon sa buhay... grrr.... mabagal na, paiba-iba pa. buti sana kung hindi naka-depend yung legal documents ni Lance sa kanya. that's why, i really don't prefer to have Lance future rely on him dahil walang kakahinatnan for sure dahil sa sobrang uncertain ng mga plans at diskarte nya. grrr..... i even skipped from work just to get the salary certificate from his office na wala pa naman pala. kung nde ka ba naman makakapatay ng tao!!! at ako pa ang pagagalitan dahil dali-dali daw ako mag-decide to skip work! eh an hour before i leave the office when i told him that i'd rather be the one to get that damn document but he has to make sure it's there. i wasn't able to get any reply so i presumed okay na and left. tapos, wala pa rin pala!!
then, speaking to him regarding his supposed to be resignation, he changed his mind na daw!!! ayun, nagtapon na naman kami ng AED 300 for Lance visa application na nde na magagamit dahil nagbago na naman isip nya. kakabadtrip talaga. nauubos na savings ko dahil lang sa mali-maling desisyon na na ako ang nagbabayad. i don't want to sound so materialistic about it pero hello.... tama ba yun na mapunta lang sa wala yung mga pinag-ipunan ko just because nagbago isip nya???!!!! ewan ko, as i was always saying, he is a hopeless case.
Sunday, July 01, 2007
we plan to have baby Lance's christening on the 28th of July instead of August 4. anyhow, with such short time and being hundred of miles away, i am in a panicky mode as i haven't even accomplished any of the preparation need- and wish-to-haves. anyhow, here's my checklist which i will try to update every once in awhile:
- church: nothing final yet. still undecided and unregistered. we already have 3 choices in mind, which are United Paranaque church, Better Living Church and Posadas Church. all within taguig area.
- reception venue : nothing final yet. still undecided and unreserved. we have 2 choices for now, the Villa Juanita in bagumbayan and the Alcatrocks inside Better Living Subd. picked due to proximity to the churches mentioned above.
- food : nothing final yet. eyeing for Blue Petals' menu for 100 persons. might lessen the number of guests due to budget constraints.
- guestlist : list is still on draft mode and formal invitations are not yet sent. tentatively, 100 guests. the more, the merrier. =)
- sponsor list : still on draft mode. so far our list includes ninongs to be ariel and aldous while ninangs will be fe, elena, fer, marianne and lea. we still have to think and finalize this list and send out favor request. to note, ang hirap to get ninang/ninong in the philippines! not unlike here in the uae, ninangs/ninongs were all in a voluntary basis during conception palang! hay, how i wish ellen and jen could be in the philippines to be the ninangs para no doubt ako that baby Lance will be taken cared of when something goes wrong with me. knock on wood! hehehe.
- cake : wishing to have a cupcake tree. shortlisted suppliers are French Kiss, Recipes and Magic, Gervy's, Sugarbox.
- photo : shortlisted suppliers are Ging Lorenzo, Jeff & Pia and probably Oliver's photography if he gives me a friendly rate, hihi.
- video : will probably use my miniDV cam. i just haven't nominated who among my nephews will be the official videographer of the day. =) i need to bring the tripod though kahit hassle sa luggage.
- wardrobes : christening wardrobes for the baby, parents and grannies. i already bought Lance's party dress in Red Tag last week (my only accomplishment so far!). cute siya and formal. i'm sure, Lance will be so cute in it.
- souvenir / lootbag / prizes: still clueless on what and where to get a useful yet cutey souvenir. i will just visit divi at the last minute for the loot bag and prizes. gawin daw bang photo-finish. =)
as for not-so-important but hoping i could get done do-it-yourself projects, the list goes as:
- "will u be my godmother/godfather" e-card : e-card making software downloaded already. poem requested via my GT forumer and is waiting for her response. i just don't have anymore of those creativity juice flowing... =(
- invitation : poem was written by my GT forumer, isisalexi! thanks sis! although all photos are available already, i still cannot make this as i have no church/venue details yet.
- guestbook / guestsheet : yep, i haven't decided which of the two to make... hehe.
- centerpiece : i have made the collage already although i am not sure if this will print out just fine. will print test it this week.
- thank you card : i already have the text waiting to be used. hihi.
- gift tags : for the kids' loot bag and guest souvenirs.
- candle wrapper : of course, for the candles! hehe. like the others, pure idea palang. no realization yet.
- baptismal rite : i have a sample already (from a forumer also) but not the one from the "supposed to be" church. technically, idea palang din ito. =)
- program : vina agreed to be my host, had 2 games in mind but still doesn't have a final program.
Friday, June 15, 2007
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
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this is the OST of the movie Music and Lyrics which featured my favorite actress, Drew Barrymore. nope, i don't relate to either the song or the movie. i just posted this song because i like the tempo. as for finding the way back into love.... i'm not actually expecting such miracle to happen.
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
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this is the OST of the movie Music and Lyrics which featured my favorite actress, Drew Barrymore. nope, i don't relate to either the song or the movie. i just posted this song because i like the tempo. as for finding the way back into love.... i'm not actually expecting such miracle to happen.
Thursday, June 07, 2007
my application for a december vacation was denied. =( i feel bad about it since i've been hoping for a yuletide holiday in the philippines. a mid-july to mid-august vacation was approved though. oh well, i might as well go and take a break after all my hard work, be it personal or professional. i really think i deserve one. =)
in between today and before leaving abu dhabi, i really should finallize the things (the legal requirements for my new quest, hehe) i should attend to in the philippines. while in the philiipines and in between the christening of baby Lance, i also should roam around the island and enjoy my stay. how's that for a plan?
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
among other problems i have right now, i feel so depressed upon knowing i have a whooping 1,500 AED dirhams telephone/internet bill!!!! hay, para akong nanganak ng 2 beses. =( i had lots of expenses these past two months but of all things that got my attention were those wasted on unimportant things such as phone bills and unused visas. nakakapanlumo and nakakapanhinayang when i could have invested these money to business with lea sana, instead of going down the drain. hay. anyway, what to do yani???!! damage has been done and i had to literally pay for it.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
"umiiyak ang aking puso't nagdurusa, ngunit ayokong may makakita..." the lyrics of a song that's just right for what i am feeling right now. why? my hubby committed the same mistake all over again. i don't hear any more of his promises. even if i do so, i can't seem to believe it any way. i am not sure what to believe anymore. i am really disappointed at him.
as of this time, one thing i am sure of is... Lance Ralen will be my top most priority. he will be the reason of all that i will be doing. my plans and goals will shift from now on.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
i just gave birth to the most beautiful baby in the world! =) you can read the exciting birth process on my other blog (www.preggymai.blogspot.com). i just wanna add that this day was something extraordinaire for me as i am now officially a mommy. it was a different happy feeling. it was like my world shifted from my husband to my son, at an instant. =) from this day on, i will try to be the greatest (at least, almost perfect) mommy there will ever be. ikaw na magka-anak na gwapo. eh di lahat ng pwede mong i-promise, gagawin mo. hihi.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
we both have 2-days off today, birthday kasi ng prophet ng mga muslims.. we just stayed in the house the whole day wherein he just slept most of the time and i have been tidying up the place while he is enjoying his sleeping moments. anyhow, when the parttimer that i have contacted came in, i woke him up and asked him to transfer to the other room as he will surely be disturbed when the cleaner starts her work. he obliged naman and made lambing pa nga. it was really odd because he was not the type who will be in a good mood when you wake him up. siguro, feel nya that i am really angry.
instead of going back to sleep, he just watched TV na lang in the living room. he asked me if i am not hungry yet as we haven't taken our lunch still even if it is almost 3 PM. told him, i am indeed hungry but is not in the mood to cook lunch. he then made lunch for both of us. sauteed tuna. okay naman kasi yung Rio tuna yun eh, it's yummy talaga. =) he was constantly making lambing the whole time. hmp.
the cleaner was able to tidy up the terrace area and our john. after the parttimer left, i decided to handwash my two blouses and then hubby came to the room and asked me if i am not bored. told him that i am bored, that is why i am keeping myself busy and hinted him that maybe he should do the same. syempre, ni-dedma niya yung sinabi ko. after finishing up my laundry, he asked me to lie beside him on the bed. that is when, we had this all sorts of talk. about plans, frustrations, etc. nag-heart-to-heart talk kami, finally! the talk did well naman, at least he heard me na this time.
the outcome??? i allowed him to have his vacation this May and the three of us will go home in December. maybe not all at the same time, but we will surely be in the Philippines to have our wedding day and/or baptism for our baby this year. yun lang naman ang gusto kong marinig eh, to have a concrete plan for the two important events. =) mahirap ba yun pagbigyan???
Friday, March 30, 2007
nagtatampo talaga ako sa hubby ko. he is decided already to have his vacation this coming May. eh bakit nga ba ayaw ko? simply because i cannot go with him because at that time, i would have just given birth. so??? i dunno where to start why i feel this way. what do i feel nga ba?
i feel that...
- we don't have the same plans / priorities.
- he just don't see what is important to me and what would make me happy. kahit na anong gawin kong explain or mention what is important to me, nde naman niya iniintindi. ni nde nga binigyang pansin eh. =(
- nde kami ng baby ko ang first priority nya. siguro, if i had to list down yung mga taong important sa kanya, ni wala kami sa top 10 and the sad part is, he is not making an effort to make us feel otherwise.
aside from his medical check-up, his reason for going home was to unwind. according to him he is just so stressed here in the UAE. stressed in all aspects, job, surrounding, etc. perhaps even with me. imagine that... pag uwi nya from office, he doesn't even have to cook. i can claim that i am taking care of him as what a wife should supposed to do. despite of which, stressed pa rin siya!!! yung iba ngang OFW, they have to cook, wash clothes, etc. pagkagaling sa work. pero siya, no need na and yet stressed pa rin! gusto ko na ngang sabihing, he might as well stay in the philippines and not to come back anymore. hmp. sabi nya magkaiba daw kasi kami, mataas daw kasi stress level tolerance ko. i was the one who even has to make all the plans and who thinks of my baby's yaya eh. ni hindi ko nga pinapa-problema sa kanya yun or financially needs his support! =( ewan ko, i just don't see any justification sa kino-complain nya.
with that, i decided na lang to go home this july and give my baby a baptism without him or his family. what for pa? nde nga kami important sa kanya eh, what more sa family nya. tama nga ako. there's no point planning for a future with him. tatanda ako nang maaga kung palaging ganito. when baby finally comes into this world, i will just be a mommy but won't be a wife anymore.
Friday, March 16, 2007
being a friday and a day of rest, hubby and me woke up late. we did not attend the friday mass today as i am not feeling so well and is having all these pregnancy dull moments. he made a breakfast of hotdogs with catsup and some onions. something yummy naman, aside from the fact that i missed purefoods hotdog so much. mag-plugging ba. hehe. as always, i do appreciate him making breakfast for me.
after our brunch and a couple of hours of watching tv, hubby made an invitation for a nap. i declined to follow him because i still have to do my chore of doing the laundry. wala na kasi siyang uniform eh. all were soiled and i need to make sure he has something to iron tonight. hihi. in fairness, each time i went inside our room, he always asked me to take a nap. i don't want to go into details, basta sweet siya today. =) when he finally decided to wake up fully, he said that we will go out.
after taking our shower, we indeed went out and had a stroll in the city. we went pinoy grocery-hopping. haha. mga walang magawa. we noticed how the weather had changed, maalinsangan na. but then again, i just needed this stroll because my edema's getting worse to worst. buti na lang, hubby was kind enough to accompany me in doing some leg exercises. =)
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