my complicated life

in my eagerness to get back into shape, i have started with the tennis clinic i once tried before i got preggy. as usual, i am still the clumsy, unathletic-type kind of girl back in the gym. hehe. anyhow, i was able to shed some sweat, kaya okay na rin. basta, my goal is to make myself fit and pretty para makahanap ng magmamahal ("the fairytale kind of love"). ngehehehe.

before i rested my tired arms, nag-forum muna ako for awhile and came across tle Legal Rights section of GT and was able to browsed thru the "annulment" and "maintaining your maiden name after marriage" threads. natawa nga ako deep inside kasi nde lang pala ako ang gumawa nito. well, i do wanted to use marvin's surname. yun nga lang, unless we get married in the church i'd rather not muna. i don't feel i am the legal wife unless i feel and he proved to the world that he is proud to have me. yeah, emote na naman ako. =( i am still in the denial stage, alright. convincing myself that i did let go, yet deep inside i am holding on. hay. ang hirap.