my complicated life

i hate writing in this blog 'bout sad things. kaya lang, this is one of those days that i need venting out how disappointed and sad i am. just this morning, i was in a rush going to the test area at Muroor. it'll be my last try on getting my UAE driver's license. unluckily, a UAE license may not be for me. i failed... again for the third time and it really is frustrating because it means i have to enrol now in the Emirates Driving School. that means, a lot more money and what's worst, is the time that i am going to spent in there if i do decide to enroll... considering it'll be very difficult for me to ask permission from my bosses. haay... i give up already.... yeah, you read it right. ayoko na! :( i tried my best na nga eh but sometimes you just have to give it up no matter how much you want it. mukhang ayaw ni Lord na magka-lisensya ako dito... i prayed so hard na nga about it, but then, still i can't go through the perfectionist policemen. naah, i don't hate them anymore. it's not their fault that i can't do it perfectly.

am containing my tears while i'm on the taxi on my way to work. sama talaga ng loob ko. nde kasi ako sanay mabigo especially of the things i want so much. let alone ang lovelife eh, dun sanay na ako mabigo..hehe. i was able to reach my place of work in one piece but with shattered self-esteem. as soon as i sat on my chair, hagulgol ako. waaahhh!!!! i was even crying when i was working on the lab... kulang na lang ay kausapin ko yung mga bato sa lungkot. anyhow, i'll let it go na... :(