my complicated life

i had a severe back pain the past days and the pain was just so terrible last night, so i have woken up late. Actually, sooo late that i almost missed our compay's service. i haven't taken any breakfast this morning and was rushing to the bus station where our service would pick me up. on my way, i saw this bird who had a gruesome death and is lying helplessly on the side of the street. probably a hit and run case... pity, even the birds fall prey on irresponsible motorists. there was another bird wandering beside the dead one and it seems like he was mourning for the dead bird. the scene just distressed me...

feeling ko, ako yung dead bird. wala lang. dunno how to explain it. but somehow, deep inside i feel like i am dead. =( ayoko na lang mag-emote sa blog na ito. but then, i regret having traded my dreams for something i thought is far greater. in the end, it didn't turn out the way as i expected it to be. sobrang sadness lang inabot ko. =(

marvin and i had a fight later at night. i just discovered something kasi, which my heart can't handle. i am deeply hurt and has spent the whole night crying. no other words can describe the pain i am going through, and no.. i don't feel like typing it either. =(