my complicated life

i am someone who's very much into planning. most of my disappointments were results of plans that didn't materialized. however, my most depressing moments are those times i learned that my plans that did materialized were actually wrong moves!!! kase naman minsan, i don't think talaga. if i do naman, i tend to be rebellious and decides to take the wrong move instead. and then what??? hay... what else, but wish i have been more sane.

now, i am more confused and sad. confused on what is there to do? hoping to find a way to undo my previous complicated decisions. sad... for seeing not a glint of hope, hoping for the impossible and dreaming for something beyond what could actually happen. ang gulo ko... i always am. that's me and this is how i live my life. if not living my life would make things simple, would it be bad to wish that i hope my life ends? hmmm... just a thought.