my complicated life

the day has been as usual...work, driving lesson. i was able to have a chat with my friends though (Elyn and Rhoda). elyn's going to a far away land (i promised not to tell kasi, hehe) and rhoda's not taking a vacation like me... casual talks, balitaan lang. after that, i logged on in the internet and was able to have a chat with a long time friend as well. he just came from a vacation from the philippines, dami niyang kwento! kakainggit because he had so much fun and was able to do so many fun activities. for awhile, i felt sorry for myself. nde kasi ako naghintay pa. i felt sorry for myself because the things that i longed for, to be married nicely and have kids, nde pa rin pala matutupad kahit na nde ako naghintay. i just remembered the email i forwarded this morning. the story about Plato and how he describes love and marriage. that love is finding the right person and losing it anyway. and marriage is finding the first person and taking risk with him. did i make sense??? i love my hubby, because he chose to be with me and keep our commitment. i love my hubby for his patience and understanding, eventhough i'm the most stubborn girl he ever had. i love my hubby because despite of all the trials we are having, i know he's trying his best to make it all easy for me. but somehow, if i feel lonely... i'd still wish i have been a jellyfish and stuck on so tight, never letting go until a vinegar is poured on me. nonsense.