my complicated life

Lately I see clouds of sorrow in your eyes
Some deep sadness you can never quite disguise
Now I'm scared to ask what it's leading to
But I'm more afraid of not asking you.


Is there something that you want to tell me
Is there something that I ought to know
Are we something that's still worth fighting for
Or should I simply let you go.


Is there something I can do to reach you
Are we something more than history
I'll find some way to convince you to stay
If you just tell me honestly
Is there something left of you and me.


You've got secrets you've been keeping for too long
And I'm going crazy acting like there's nothing wrong
I can taste the truth every time we kiss
And I can't go on
At least not like this.


I don't want to lose you
But what's the use of holding on
I don't really have you
If the feeling's gone.


Is there something I can do to reach you
Are we something more than history
If there's no way to convince you to stay
And be the way we used to be
Then there's something that I want to tell you
And I want you to believe it's true
We had something that I'll never forget
Even if I wanted to
'Cause part of me will always be with you.


this was given to me by my friend, Jihan. maybe because this was so apt for the situation i am at right now. ewan ko ba. do i really need to hurt him para lang ma-realize nya ang faults nya? do i really have to keep him away from his child to wake him up from his beliefs that were so wrong? he is so kakaiba. to the point i could claim na isa siyang taong lobo. so insensitive, so mean.



of course, i want things to be nice and perfect. i want a family that i can be proud of and something where we would be all feel happy and secured. but the way things are going... i better make a decision fast and firm. i better send him to a rehabilitation before he gets worst. i do hope he recuperates from the sickness he is suffering at. i do hope he recovers in time... before i recover from him.