Monday, June 28, 2010

Wanted : Happiness

0 comments Posted by myleen at 9:20 AM

nowadays, networking websites (like facebook, friendster, etc.) turned out to be venting out websites also. yes, everybody needs to build network of friends and in turn, they vent out to these people about their success, downfalls or just about anything in their minds.

i am one of these people. i check my facebook account more than 3 times in most days just to see what my friends are doing. i in turn, vents out once in awhile in a rather subtle hideous way.

since my mother became "single", i have lost the emotional connection with her. thus, most of my frustrations in life are bottled up inside me. i turn into these venting out websites (this blog included) to pour out a little when i really, really need to unload. i pour some to a handful of friends (to my BFF tina, most especially) when i feel like am about to explode. however, as much as possible i keep my burdens to myself (or type it in here) and spare my friends of unhappy stories. i don't like telling unhappy stories. i don't like to be seen sad. in times like these, i just sing my song....

 

Sunday, June 27, 2010

The Rotten Apple....

0 comments Posted by myleen at 11:47 AM

a few days back, a friend has forwarded a powerpoint presentation to me about happiness. it says there that one's happiness shouldn't depend on other people or things as both of these change. it stresses that happiness depends on the person's decision to be happy by himself.

i have read the presentation three times since i last received it and i told her that i really couldn't digest the message. my realization was that..i am not truly happy. i am happy with some things but i don't sleep with contentment as i used to have despite having less of what i have right now. though as what the presentation suggests, i just decide to make myself happy. but personally, i think this is happiness half-baked.

after telling her this, she forwarded another message to me about the rotten apple. a person heard that God is giving away apples. after a long queue, she was able to get hold of one but God made it slipped her hands because He realizes later on that it is rotten anyway. it suggested to queue again and wait for the next apple which would take longer to arrive but will be the sweetest apple available.

it was a nice read. however, i do hope that i get to see another version. yung version ng mga pasaway like i am. someone who has no patience to wait and settled for the rotten apple. because right now, i am lost as what to do with my apple that i have spent my time trying to polish and convincing myself that someday it'll taste yummy like the rest that i have missed.
(i never really liked apples. why did i queued, anyway? )

 

Back Online...

0 comments Posted by myleen at 10:32 AM

oh my.. oh my.. this blog hasn't been updated or visited for quite sometime. it only shows how uneventful my life is. hehe. anyhow, to recap how the months have been:

  1. ate bel's not with us anymore. she has gone back to the Philippines last end of March after a stressful visa problem. it is stressful enough for me thus am not willing to talk about it one more time, so pardon the confidentiality. but to summarize it all, i bought my peace of mind and had to let ate bel go despite this decision that truly broke our hearts.
  2. our Philippines-Australia vacation pushed through. the Australian peep was great, although some personal glitches were experienced. it was difficult to travel with two boys in tow, really.
  3. after our vacation, lance stayed behind in the Philippines for two more months while i came back to UAE alone. lance was able to celebrate his 3rd birthday in Jollibee with his cousins while i, on the other hand was able to practice my photography hobby when i came back to UAE.
  4. my home alone experience was not bad at all. some how, being busy paid off. i was able to focus in practicing photography and has been out and about in Abu Dhabi driving around. yep, i am more confident now to drive. of course, parking is another story. ngahaha.
  5. lance was back in the UAE since June 18 and is now enrolled in a 2x/week playschool. he has been his teacher's headache but hopefully, he'll adjust. i wish, soon enough though. haha.
  6. i am still the same. lost some friends but gained new ones. a few patient ones are still with me. life is not perfect but living it just the same.

(hmm.. how come i couldn't cut and paste from notepad to blogger, anymore??! *sad face*)

 

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