my complicated life

• the pink Kaypee shoes from my dad. back in elementary pa ito. the Kaypee ad really got me hooked and i finally got this when we went to Cubao after watching Holiday On Ice.
• the cute doll from my friend Eli. it was like i-pity-you kind of gift. hehe. as a consolation that i was loveless at that time and it's nearly Christmas, my friend bought me this doll as a gift kasi for sure wala raw akong mare-receive na regalo that time. friend talaga noh?! hehe.
• the blue checkered blouse with hood that i asked from my tatay nung mga time that i resigned from work and i don't have the money to buy it. i saw it displayed in SM and it was love-at-first kind of wanting. i actually asked from my mom but she refused to give me money. my second option was to ask from my dad and i was never wrong. =)
• the cinderella pants that i asked as a christmas gift from my kuya na alam kong hinding-hindi ako mahihirapan to ask from him. he is so mabait talaga at ang daling utuin. hehe, peace kuya. kaya naman nagpapa-uto rin ako when he asked for a treat.

hmmm.. yun lang. hehe. sa mga kusang ibinigay naman, well material things nga sila, not that i really wanted them pero i have been treasuring these gifts because of the act that they were given as a surprise gift. wala lang, i love surprises kasi. hehe. hmmm... ano-ano nga ba rin yun..

• my monthly yakult from my kuya boboy. his pasalubong sa akin tuwing sumusweldo siya. saka para lumakas daw ako. hehe. lampayatot kasi ako dati.
• the swatch watch that was my sister's birthday gift to me. it was green in color with a some musical notes and a piano. cute. i still have this at our house in the phils eventhough it's not working anymore. still in its original casing pa huh.
• the keyboards from my kuya's. they know that i really like to play the keyboard kasi kaya i practically grew up with all sorts of keyboard sizes. ang kulang na lang eh yung grand electone organ. hehe. which if i really wanted to have now, eh i have to buy it for myself na. =)
• birthday cards from my lolo. not actually surprises but he's the only one who doesn't forget to send me a birthday card. well, ngayon wala na because he passed away already. i occassionally get birthday cards from a couple of friends after that but not as consistent as my lolo's yearly, "i remember you and wish you had a happy birthday"-thought.
• the jewelries from my ate at kuya na sadly, all were snatched away by some strangers. hay. street life in the philippines.
• the apple ornament from my bestfriend Aye. my bestfriend that never fails me sa lahat ng aking paglalambing. i miss this mokong. san ka na??!! paramdam ka huy!!
• birthday gifts from my ex's, hehe. you know who you are. *winks*

as i was saying, apart from all these lahat ng ginusto ko i need to get it for myself na. i guess, kailangan kong isaksak sa kukote ko yun. ang hirap actually. especially because i know i deserve the best, o kahit man lang better pa dun eh. in short, i know i am bound to get hurt over and over and over again until i found the BEST that i deserve.