It's been 3 years.
10 years ago
Sunday, May 13, 2007
"umiiyak ang aking puso't nagdurusa, ngunit ayokong may makakita..." the lyrics of a song that's just right for what i am feeling right now. why? my hubby committed the same mistake all over again. i don't hear any more of his promises. even if i do so, i can't seem to believe it any way. i am not sure what to believe anymore. i am really disappointed at him.
as of this time, one thing i am sure of is... Lance Ralen will be my top most priority. he will be the reason of all that i will be doing. my plans and goals will shift from now on.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
i just gave birth to the most beautiful baby in the world! =) you can read the exciting birth process on my other blog (www.preggymai.blogspot.com). i just wanna add that this day was something extraordinaire for me as i am now officially a mommy. it was a different happy feeling. it was like my world shifted from my husband to my son, at an instant. =) from this day on, i will try to be the greatest (at least, almost perfect) mommy there will ever be. ikaw na magka-anak na gwapo. eh di lahat ng pwede mong i-promise, gagawin mo. hihi.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
we both have 2-days off today, birthday kasi ng prophet ng mga muslims.. we just stayed in the house the whole day wherein he just slept most of the time and i have been tidying up the place while he is enjoying his sleeping moments. anyhow, when the parttimer that i have contacted came in, i woke him up and asked him to transfer to the other room as he will surely be disturbed when the cleaner starts her work. he obliged naman and made lambing pa nga. it was really odd because he was not the type who will be in a good mood when you wake him up. siguro, feel nya that i am really angry.
instead of going back to sleep, he just watched TV na lang in the living room. he asked me if i am not hungry yet as we haven't taken our lunch still even if it is almost 3 PM. told him, i am indeed hungry but is not in the mood to cook lunch. he then made lunch for both of us. sauteed tuna. okay naman kasi yung Rio tuna yun eh, it's yummy talaga. =) he was constantly making lambing the whole time. hmp.
the cleaner was able to tidy up the terrace area and our john. after the parttimer left, i decided to handwash my two blouses and then hubby came to the room and asked me if i am not bored. told him that i am bored, that is why i am keeping myself busy and hinted him that maybe he should do the same. syempre, ni-dedma niya yung sinabi ko. after finishing up my laundry, he asked me to lie beside him on the bed. that is when, we had this all sorts of talk. about plans, frustrations, etc. nag-heart-to-heart talk kami, finally! the talk did well naman, at least he heard me na this time.
the outcome??? i allowed him to have his vacation this May and the three of us will go home in December. maybe not all at the same time, but we will surely be in the Philippines to have our wedding day and/or baptism for our baby this year. yun lang naman ang gusto kong marinig eh, to have a concrete plan for the two important events. =) mahirap ba yun pagbigyan???
Friday, March 30, 2007
nagtatampo talaga ako sa hubby ko. he is decided already to have his vacation this coming May. eh bakit nga ba ayaw ko? simply because i cannot go with him because at that time, i would have just given birth. so??? i dunno where to start why i feel this way. what do i feel nga ba?
i feel that...
- we don't have the same plans / priorities.
- he just don't see what is important to me and what would make me happy. kahit na anong gawin kong explain or mention what is important to me, nde naman niya iniintindi. ni nde nga binigyang pansin eh. =(
- nde kami ng baby ko ang first priority nya. siguro, if i had to list down yung mga taong important sa kanya, ni wala kami sa top 10 and the sad part is, he is not making an effort to make us feel otherwise.
aside from his medical check-up, his reason for going home was to unwind. according to him he is just so stressed here in the UAE. stressed in all aspects, job, surrounding, etc. perhaps even with me. imagine that... pag uwi nya from office, he doesn't even have to cook. i can claim that i am taking care of him as what a wife should supposed to do. despite of which, stressed pa rin siya!!! yung iba ngang OFW, they have to cook, wash clothes, etc. pagkagaling sa work. pero siya, no need na and yet stressed pa rin! gusto ko na ngang sabihing, he might as well stay in the philippines and not to come back anymore. hmp. sabi nya magkaiba daw kasi kami, mataas daw kasi stress level tolerance ko. i was the one who even has to make all the plans and who thinks of my baby's yaya eh. ni hindi ko nga pinapa-problema sa kanya yun or financially needs his support! =( ewan ko, i just don't see any justification sa kino-complain nya.
with that, i decided na lang to go home this july and give my baby a baptism without him or his family. what for pa? nde nga kami important sa kanya eh, what more sa family nya. tama nga ako. there's no point planning for a future with him. tatanda ako nang maaga kung palaging ganito. when baby finally comes into this world, i will just be a mommy but won't be a wife anymore.
Friday, March 16, 2007
being a friday and a day of rest, hubby and me woke up late. we did not attend the friday mass today as i am not feeling so well and is having all these pregnancy dull moments. he made a breakfast of hotdogs with catsup and some onions. something yummy naman, aside from the fact that i missed purefoods hotdog so much. mag-plugging ba. hehe. as always, i do appreciate him making breakfast for me.
after our brunch and a couple of hours of watching tv, hubby made an invitation for a nap. i declined to follow him because i still have to do my chore of doing the laundry. wala na kasi siyang uniform eh. all were soiled and i need to make sure he has something to iron tonight. hihi. in fairness, each time i went inside our room, he always asked me to take a nap. i don't want to go into details, basta sweet siya today. =) when he finally decided to wake up fully, he said that we will go out.
after taking our shower, we indeed went out and had a stroll in the city. we went pinoy grocery-hopping. haha. mga walang magawa. we noticed how the weather had changed, maalinsangan na. but then again, i just needed this stroll because my edema's getting worse to worst. buti na lang, hubby was kind enough to accompany me in doing some leg exercises. =)
Thursday, March 15, 2007
me and hubby went to a travel agency to pay for my sister's ticket. grabe, it took us more than an hour just for that. daming passengers! anyhow, the PTA ticket price was just exorbitant! imagine, he paid AED 3,320 + 2% surcharge fee. naaawa nga ako eh because it costs almost his entire monthly salary but i have chosen not to give in, para naman maging responsible siya financially and that he learns to save for his child.
before, whether PTA or not, round-trip ticket just costs 2K to 2.5K AED. but now, tickets that have passengers originating from Manila pays twice as much. their explanation was that these airlines have upgraded their system. but it was not a big "upgrade" if i may say. just because it can send travel advisories online, will cost each passenger $300 more???!!! kainis di ba? anyway, sister dear will be here in UAE on the 2nd of april via etihad airlines.
by the way, our director went to my office this afternoon. he asked me to do another job for him and this time he also asked for silvía to check my work prior to my submission. it was okay, at least on speaking terms na ulet kami despite the reason that i couldn't bring myself to look straight to his eyes. nahihiya ako for my kapalpakans which were just so petty but destructive.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
addendum to my previous post, i got scolded by our director today. he was just furious!!! ang high-profile nga eh, director pa ang nagagalit sa akin. i just dunno know how that error (singular lang huh) missed my eyes. if i made him mad the last time, this time he was extremely overly mad. according to him, i made him look bad in the eyes of his not-so favorite person in PI. however, i also did not like that to happen but what can i do? i am just human, prone for errors. hay. still, i had cried a river. =( i wrote him an email to seek for his apology and before the day ends, i got a reply that he just overacted with what transpired.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
contrary to my expectation of a scolding by our director, i wasn't able to get one today. i submitted the technical evaluation the other day, took him a day to check it and this day he forwarded it to the procurement manager without any corrections. he hates mistakes kasi and as he reminded me last week, we cannot afford to have one. not these days or in any other days. it this is the reason why i wasn't able to get a promotion this year, i still think it is unfair. hello??!!! i was the one making all these technical evaluations kahit na magkanda-duling-duling na ako sa dami! nde naman sa nag-rereklamo ako. hehe. my point is, i should be given some credits for this effort. imagine, i have to think of the all our laboratories needs, then all these people have to ask me where is this, or that. hello??!!! ako ba tanungan ng nawawalang beaker at kung ano-ano pa??!! ano pa use ng database, when they are just so tinatamad to check it. buti na lang, kabisado ko where everything is supposed to be. hay naku, venting lang.
anyway, making these technical evaluations were not that difficult naman. it's just that medyo nakakaduling lang talaga when there are just so many items to evaluate or incomplete/new informations that i have to research pa, just to evaluate sensibly. but somehow, i am thankful that i was the one making it at this time. at least, nde ako feeling useless now that i don't have that much laboratory works. also, searching for informations that were greek to me adds a little something to my coconut. like differences/advantages of having incremental vs. absolute rotary encoder, optical vs. laser plummet, etc. wala lang, not my field but nice to know. =)
Sunday, March 11, 2007
i had a terrible day at the office. =( i don't wanna talk about it for it would make my night a terrible one as well. all i can say is, i would expect a much terrible day tomorrow. hay, kasi...kasi... no one to blame but me. oh well, as for the day's other happenings...
- i woke up so late that i wasn't able to take a decent breakfast. i just snatched the choco-mocca biscuit at the cupboard and munched it when i reached the office. oh, i also brought sliced pears and 2 bananas from home. =)
- i had tons of desk work that i only had chicken soup for lunch (a soup where i couldn't find a single chicken strip...). the soup for the hungry soul and bulgy stomach..hehe.
- the recreation committee's organizing an Egypt trip slated on April 8-12 and staying at Hilton Hotel. why, oh why??!!! of all times, do they have to schedule it on days i can't possibly go?? nakakainis! i repeat, nakakainis to the max!!!!
- our PRO refused to attend to my request of visa application for my sister. he suggested i go down to the Abu Dhabi Immigration Department myself. ako pa??!! nway, straight from the office, i went to the said government agency. i got there around 4:15 PM. the guard was nice and he instructed me for the procedure and where to go to. i went first to have the application written online and printed out (this is outside the immigration building, right side) to be attached to the required documents. the documents that i brought are me and my sister's passport copies, her photo (which i just grabbed from her friendster account and printed from my office's printer, hehe) and my salary certificate written in arabic. it costs me 25AED for that application letter which was also written in arabic. then, i bought an e-card with empost (courier) entitlement that costs 117 AED in all (100 AED for the visa, 10 AED for the empost and probably 7 AED for the card?? hehe). i finished attending to with these documents at around 5 pm. i went back to the immigration building (left side), took a number slip which serves as a queue. my slip reads i'm customer #0631 and they are currently serving customer # 0540!! ohmigosh! quite a long queue and my baby's having his tantrums already because of hunger. since i am pretty sure it'll take me centuries before i can have my turn, i went out and luckily found a vendo machine and had a cup of hot choco instead. i climbed up the stairs going to the big building where there are 3 adjoining seats at each side of the stairway. i sat on one of the seats, drank my coco and ate one of the bananas i hurriedly placed in my bag this morning. i don't care whether walang ka-poise-poise yung meal ko and that i had to bite into that banana in public! gutom na si baby and i don't think i could last that long with him doing somersaults inside my tummy until i don't give in to his demands. =) after a couple of minutes of being full, my bladder felt its needs to empty out as well. i went down, checked the queue... customer #0584... still a long way to go! so, i surveyed the whole immigration department for a sight of a john, which i luckily found at the left side of the big building, ground floor. ang galing mo talaga, myleen! haha. i took a refreshing leak and went back to the visa (leftside) building afterwards and waited there for my #0631st turn. however, with angels on my side making up for my bad day, the person seated beside me seemed to have lost his/her patience that he/she left his/her slip. i dunno the pronoun to use since i wasn't able to see the person responsible. all i did noticed was that a #0621 slip was at the seat beside me ready for taking. syempre, i am just a smart human so i innocently slid my hands into it. hihi. yeepee!! customer #0621!!! around 7:00 PM, "my" new number was called and i was able to submit my sister's visa application which i will just wait after 3 days for a courier to deliver right by our doorstep. before i left the building, i gave my customer # 0631 slip to a fellow kabayan na kahit na ini-snob ako, it's my way of paying it forward to the good angels and grant to her my unused slip. at exactly, 7:15 PM, i was out of the immigration department. =)
some things to take note though...
- the immigration department do not take cash for payment. that's the use of the e-card that i bought from the typing folks outside the immigration office.
- i saved roughly 50 AED, against having this visa processsed by our PRO who charges me 220AED/visa. hmp!
- i only had a regular visa for processing which was 100 AED. an extra 100 AED is required should one wants the visa processed and claimed after an hour.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
after my confrontation with my hubby and a phonecall to the concerned girl, i have once again made a phonecall to the same girl and asked for her view on the matter. according to her, i shouldn't be "worried" for anything that could happen between her and my hubby as there wouldn't be any because she is aware of the status of my husband. based from our conversation, it was reassuring to hear her side of the story. as to how much of it is true, that i am not so sure. but if i had to base my "peacefulness" with that, i could say it is acceptable. whether they are telling me the truth or not, i choose now to leave things as it is and treat it settled. anyway, i always believe in karma. so if they treat me bad, i always get the good karma. hehe. snatching my hubby is not as bad as snatching my baby anyway. hahaha.
Friday, March 02, 2007
with the recent controversy over the Kris Aquino and James Yap marriage, almost everybody's heart goes out to Kris inclding mine. i was so sad on what has transpired between the two of them, or should i say, the four of them (including the third party and the innocent child). however, i have never imagined that i would be in the same situation as Kris.
yesterday, i was able to read my hubby's YM transcripts with his supposedly "bestfriend" back in the philippines. yes, it was an invasion of privacy but hubby had given me his online account passwords for me to check out on him once in awhile and prove to me that how faithful he is. however, his conversion with this girl was different. it seemed to me that they have some sort of a "history" together. well, past is past. if they indeed has one, i wouldn't mind as long as he tells me the truth and promised not to continue it again.
after reading the the said logged conversation, i was really shaking. i don't know if it's because of anger with hubby's dishonesty, pity on myself and our baby, or hatred for the girl for messing with our married life. i called the girl and calmly relayed to her how she's making me feel. hoping that as a girl, she would somehow understand the situation and hopefully won't tolerate hubby's flirting. i know naman kasi, even if a guy flirts, when the other party don't respond, he'll eventually stop. i have called the girl because i cannot expect guys to stop flirting, it's in their nature. well, i'm speaking generally. i was hoping that she being a girl and supposed to be "just a bestfriend", would take the initiative to shun away from hubby on her own. although my conversation with the girl got cut-off, i somehow managed to get the message across. after that phonecall, i called hershey and cried. cried to the max. i am so sad. tama si Kris, this belongs to one of the saddest days of a wóman's life.
after an hour of pouring out to my friend hershey my heartaches, i have decided to go out. actually, hubby and me are supposed to go out today. but after i took my shower, i immediately took off without speaking or waiting for him to be ready. i need to cool my head off, think and be calm before i confront him. i went to the church instead, asked for God and Mama Mary's help and for them to take care of my baby even if i am in such a mess. i joined in the Station's of the Cross novena and somehow felt that Jesus is sharing my pain. i couldn't help to cry even at church. syempre, medyo pigil with all those people around. i have asked for guidance as to what to do and poured what my heart feels. i believe that Mama Mary listens to my prayers and helps me with my heart desires. when hubby and i are still going out, i have asked Mama Mary if he's the one and after we got married, i even asked her to grant us with a little baby. she has answered my prayers and i was hoping she will guide me again today as to what's the best thing to do or say or believe in.
i went home around 7PM finding hubby watching TV. obviously, he knows there is something wrong with me as he is very silent. i turned off the TV and told him we need to talk. i told him that i knew about his conversation with this girl. i asked him to explain things to me. he has told me that everything was just "playing around" and that it shouldn't make me feel less loved. he said that it is still the insecurity and jealousy that's killing me and that shouldn't be the case as he has never cheated on me. he promised not to chat with the girl again. a promise that i am not so sure he would keep but still hoping he would for our baby's sake. anyhow, he knows how affected i am. i have asked him if he wants to leave me or don't love me anymore. he answered that it was only me who was entertaining that idea. he embraced me and my tummy, kissed me, stroke my hair, reassured me... the sorts of things he used to do to weaken my angry heart. it did.
honesty, i was prepared for a break-up no matter how much i love him. i dunno what to believe in him anymore, but i always hold on to his decisions. if this is a sign of being foolishly in love, then i am one of the fools. i am holding on because of our baby and our family. i don't want him to grow up without a dad. i don't want him to grow up confused as to where to go home to. what i really wanted is a happy family. as long as hubby hold on to us as well, i will choose to believe to what he is saying. however, i hope God will help us to be true to ourselves and keep us binded to achieve all these.
Friday, February 23, 2007
after finally figuring out how to operate our sewing machine (thanks to my friend ellyn!), i finally found the courage to make my first ever masterpiece. hehe.
with all the retasos from the bedding that ellyn made for me, i tried patching things up and made a cover for our bread toaster. i won't post a photo anymore since it hasn't achieved that masterpiece quality. haha. medyo malaki siya than what it was supposed to be. however, since it still served the purpose of covering the damn toaster, pde na ring pagtiyagaan. =)
oh yeah, i haven't posted that around two weeks ago i was able to repair hubby's jeans and my maternity wear splendidly. naks! pinangangatawanan ko pagiging homemaker noh. actually, what made me really, really pursue learning to operate the sewing machine was the fact that hubby wanted to buy a new pair of jeans. haha. sayang kaya... pang-grocery na rin ang 100 dirhams noh. when i sewed his torn jeans, it looks good as new. bilib nga siya eh! hihi.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
i really don't expect anything special to happen this day or on any other Valentine's Day as my hubby is not that kind of guy. well, i have to live with it amongst other weaknesses included in the package. hehe.
anyhow, the day turned out different. when i got home from the office, he greeted me and i replied back casually. then he asked if i have seen his gift for me at the dining room. i said, i haven't and how i wished it was something tasty. haha, napaghaha-halata! before i go and see it, i told him it must not be a joke or i'd kill him. ;) so, off i went to the dining area and saw a single red rose, stuck in my vase. well, that's the vase where i put fresh flowers that i receive. it was kilig na rin since this was the first time i receive a flower from him that was bought. =) before, he gave me some roses too (not on a Valentine's Day), but it was just plucked from his inang's collections. at least, now he managed to buy me one na. improving...!!! haha.
more to that, we had dinner in one of the restos in the city. not a fine dining one, as he went home late from work so we figured out that fine dining at that hour means a crowded place with expats from all over. so we just had a quiet dinner in one continental restaurant with a candle at your table to make it romantic nonetheless. overall, the night was okay na rin. at least, valentine's day did not passed us by just like that.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
written by Arthur Golden
i don't have any idea about geisha's aside from what it seemed to imply from reviews that it was some sort of traditional prostitutes. however, after finishing this book, i definitely feel it was far from its assumption. my favorite character is Sayuri because of her innocence, her determination to change the course of her life, her strength to rise from her struggles, her love that kept her going...
the story has vividly shown the traditions and trainings of those that become geishas. the art involve and the discipline required. somehow, it represents that geishas deserve the honor that they are getting from their clients and from other villagers as well.
this book is not a love story but it is a good read to be acquianted with Japan's culture and in understanding the life of geishas. a story that shows how life can turn out positively despite its hardships.
Monday, January 22, 2007
8 P.M., Le Meridian Hotel, Talay Restaurant... this was where we met up to have our Ladies' Night Out with colleagues (me, Jovy, Pilar and Silvia). it was a Thai restaurant. at first, i wasn't too excited about the place since the Thai food i was able to taste back in the Philippines is just okay, but not that grand to actually crave into.
however, for tonight it was something different. the menu list is helpful as it had pictures of cute little chilis beside the name of the menu to guide the picker as to how "hot" the food is. 1 little chili for mild, 2 little chilis for moderate and 3 little chilis for above average hotness... hehe. we had soup for starters. i don't remember the thai name for the soup that i had. but it is a clear soup with prawns, mushrooms, asparagus, bell peppers and brocolli. no chili please! =) it was good! as i finish it up, i can't believe i was able to eat something with garlic! hihi. yep, it has garlic also, but i only notice (and tasted) it at the last portion after i have devoured the rest of the stuffs in the soup. hehe.
for the main menu, we had a seafood grill of all sorts... prawns, lobster, hammour and other types of fishes with butter and lemon sauce and a chili sauce, to choose from. we also had seafood fried rice on the side and mixed veggies to go along with the seafood feast. of course, we ordered a bottle of red wine to go with the carbos. i had a few sips so little baby was kinda tipsy that made him behaved while mommy do some socializing. hihi. overall, the food was just great and the chit-chat was not so bad as well! =)
Thursday, January 11, 2007
jhen's hubby, jasper, is on land at this moment (he's usually out in the sea to work, hehe). jhen and i decided to have dinner at home so jasper and marvin could have a little chat before jasper went out to his waterworld again. =)
anyway, for dinner, i prepared my ever delicious caldereta and "laing". it was my first time to cook "laing" (taro leaves) and it wasn't so bad huh! i also invited elyn and josie to come over, so aside from being tonight as jasper and marvn's chat session, it was also a chat session for me and my future "kumare's". yep, the three of them will be my son's godmothers here in UAE being the closest friends that i have on this side of the planet.
elyn also baked scrumptious cassava cake. it was her first time to do some baking and it turned out great already. may future huh! hehe...
the day ended past 12 midnight already. though everyone's still on the mood to chat, we decided to call the day off since some still have work tomorrow. everybody went home with a smile though. sarap chumika talaga in the company of friends! hehe.
Monday, December 25, 2006
i have prepared a oven-baked milkfish, beef balls with sweet and sour sauce and buko pandan salad for our Noche Buena feast. nope, no chicken today please!!! hehe. hubby and i had a quiet dinner together. we did not wait for 12 AM as we were supposed to attend the Midnight Mass at St. Joseph's Church. we went down our building around 11:15 PM and waited for a taxi cab that will take us to the church. since today is an ordinary day for non-Christians, taxis are not that abundant at this time of the night. luckily, we were able to get one at around 11:45 PM, just in time for the mass.
at the church, there was a huge crowd gathered at the grounds to hear the Holy Word. nationalities of all sorts, but mostly flocked by indians and filipinos. the weather was cold as expected. although one could feel the unity by having a common mass for any nationality, i still think that a separate mass for each laguage would be better to avoid such big crowd. anyhow, we were able to hear the mass proceedings until the Homily part, as my hubby felt so ill that we had to rush back home.
Friday, December 15, 2006
my hubby's karate club had their christmas gathering today at the corniche ground. i was invited by my hubby to tag along, in order for me to meet his karate friends and at the same time be their "photographer/videographer" as well. kaya pala ako isinama!!! =)
their stint started around 10 AM with individual demonstration of skills and then followed by group demo. they also had a fight match amongst each other. watching my hubby fight was kinda funny. hehe. he looked like a school kid challenged to a fight by a bully. =)
after all the karate show-offs we had lunch together with these karate guys. ang daming food!! we had different meat dishes, pancit, cassava cake, etc. with all these delicacies, me and "baby" in my tummy are happy eventhough we are just guests. hihi.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
i have been feeling "less important" the past days at work since i now work less at the lab. however, taking in-charge of the SEM and thin section presentation for the Open Day yesterday have made up my self-esteem. Aside from the vocal praises i received from our director, i also received a documented one. hehe. here's what he says...
All,
I would like to thank everyone for their participation in the Open Day yesterday. I think it went very well. We’ll see how many students decide to major in Geoscience. I particularly want to thank Myleen (Great job!), Silvia (Students really seemed to be interested in fossils!), James and his earthquakes, Jovy, Sree, Vicky, Pilar, and the faculty who spent the entire day interacting the students (classes permitting). I can’t overstress how important this kind of activity is in making
Geosciences attractive and interesting.
Thanks again,
Dr. Robert D.
Winn
Director
Petroleum Geosciences
Thursday, October 19, 2006
in accordance with the muslim celebration of Eid, today's our last day of work. yahoo!!!! we shall resume office on the 29th. =)
in this regard, the following will be on my to-do list:
- picnic with friends
- make the long overdue HK video
- buy goodies and send package to the philippines
- buy textile to be made into new clothes and beddings
gosh, i hope i can accomplish all these at nde na naman umiral ang katamaran ko... hehe.
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