my complicated life

i have laid back in blogging because i am uber busy these days. i am juggling between being a mom, a domestic goddess, a daughter, a worker, a tennis player, a choir member, a friend and a migrant wannabe.


as a mom... i had to take care of lance at least, even after office. he's closer to ate bel na nga than me eh. good thing, he still sleeps with us and i'm still the one who can lull him to a good night sleep. mas type nya kasi ang lullabye songs ko. =)


as a domestic goddess... just as soon as i change to my house clothes, i had to cook dinner. ate bel aren't into cooking eh. even if it's okay for her, i still prefer that i'll be the one to cook. masyado kasi nyang minamadali ang pagluluto, which i don't like. i feel na masyadong nasa-shock yung niluluto when done in a rush. =) imagine eating a shocked fish??! hahaha. ang weird, diba? with the fish's eyes looking at you... haha. also, friday is ate bel's off, therefore i had to be both a mom and a domestic goddess at the same time on that day.


a daughter... yep, lately even if i am miles away from home, i had to call every once in awhile and check the olds. the family is in the most difficult trial in a lifetime that needs resolving kasi. it's hard to get things done, especially that i am relying on my siblings to keep things under control. it's doubly hard that those involved are not interested to fix the problem. sigh... the least that i can do is check on them and pray.


a worker... things aren't good in this role of mine. i am pissed off with my superiors but i have no choice but keep working. if not for my son's future i could have given up... =( right now, i have four instruments for installation. four different processes to study.. cathodoluminescence, laser diffraction, centrifugal force, spectroscopy... plus other issues to settle. mababaliw na nga yata ako!


a tennis player... with all the roles that i am playing right now, this is what makes me feel alive. and why not??? i had tremendous body pain every sunday because i play tennis on saturdays. it all started after ramadan when i met two new friends (ely and molly) who had been so patient in teaching me and my friend (jen) how to play the game. we are not that good yet but at least, the tennis balls can now reach the end of the other court and we can now volley.


a choir member... oh-no.... this i have completely backed off. hopefully, not for long. but for how long, i don't know. i wanted so much to go back but my 24-hour is just isn't enough with all the things i need to do. hay. anyhow, i am hoping i could go back when lance finally walks on his own so that we could spend our mommy-baby bonding time singing with the choir. hehe.

a friend... this is a role i am not so very good at. i cannot say i have fulfilled this task quite well because if i would befriend myself, i would definitely plunk. i help friends through friends. does it make sense? all is can say is, i hope my friends pardon my shortcomings. i definitely love to spend time chatting with them, hear their sentiments, enjoy barbeque, go shopping with them, do crazy things... i just couldn't snatch a perfect timing right now. however, i will make up next year. pramis! =)

as a migrant wannabe... yeah, 2 more years to go and it would be the end for this goal. yep, i have set my 35th years of age as my final migration year. within that period, i should be able to submit the immigration application to the country where i want to migrate or else i should say goodbye. decision-making as to where's the best place to migrate is just tough. i haven't been to these countries (Canada, Australia or New Zealand??) and opinion varies. because of these, i have to do a lot of reading and research which are just so difficult to squeeze in my schedule. sigh...